Wednesday, December 28, 2011


It has been quite some times since the last updates. Currently, i felt that i had lost my way~~ with no directions~ Hoping that i'll be getting out from this kind of environment soooooon..=)

Thursday, October 6, 2011

一个男人在观众席中说了个笑话, 大家都笑得前俯后仰; 过了一阵子, 那个男人再说同一个笑话, 这次,笑的人比较少了;、 又过了一阵子, 男人又再说同一个笑话, 这次,没有人笑了。 男人随即微笑道: ''既然你不能为了同一个笑话笑了又笑, 那为什么你要为了同一件事情哭了又哭呢? ♥ ♥ ♥ A man among the audience spoke a joke, And everyone was in great laughter. After a while, The man said the same joke, This time, relatively fewer people laugh;, Then, after a while, The man repeated the same joke, But this time, no one laughed. Then the man smiled and said: 'Since you could not laugh for the same joke, Why do you want to cry and cry for the same thing then? ♥ ♥ ♥

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Lazy excuse

Hehe.. When you free, asked you to exercise, you dun wan. You say next time la. Den when "uncomfortable" that time sure cant d lo.. Den when you very sien that time asked you to exercise den you say dun wan. Haha..dunno la.. den you just saying that you wanna go out~~ aiyo..>_<

Wednesday, September 14, 2011



Thursday, August 4, 2011

Studies Vs Online


Wednesday, August 3, 2011


Do people really change?
or they only will change after they really face a very serious problem?
yesterday, i heard someone said i change
he said i change a lot~~
is he saying the truth or he just wanna comfort me?
i know myself.
every time i say change, but always still the same.
sometimes, even myself cant believe what am i talking and promising.
i know i always break promise
but............still dunno to change.
such a failure

after the seminar, i realise many things
i cant do things myself all the times.
because human always will defeat by desire
means that, we need god to help us and be with us
don we believe that we can stand firm, because human being cant do that.
i will always remember the triangle.

don worry
i know what to do
thanks for being trust in me for so long time.
sorry i din change for one year and seven months
i am trying.
bless me can really fight until the end!!!

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

very tired a today..
Woked up early in the morning before the sun rises...
den having a bored lecture class from 8-11am~~ its Business research class..@.@
in between of the class, me and my group members went to library..
The very first time that i really try to find books for assignment in HELP..XD
After that continue another tutorial class~~
11-12:30pm..its Financial Management~~
The lecturer and tutor is the same person..
He's always late to class, and ends his class early..XD
But the problem is that he didn't really explain what he had taught..
He's just too fast that we don't even know what to ask..
nvm ba..
i'll try to read the textbook..=)
Gambate o..
After that went for Movie~~
Wu Xia(武侠)..
Its still not bad..=)
back home also 5pm..sleep awhile den went for basketball..
today i went to Selayang basketball court to play..
Wow.its been a long time since last play~~
The court is very slippery, that's the main point that i dun like it..
But in the other hand..
I love to play there because i'll have opponents to play will there..
i mean opponents that is challenging..
Nowadays kinda hard to find secondary school kids to play with me..
Most of them can't really up to the standard..
So it will be kinda bored to play with them..
but sometimes still Kinda fun when playing them..XD
I prefer more challenging opponents.
Like this only i can play till the max and will improve~~
there's a chinese saying, 遇强愈强~~
story ends here for today~~

Sunday, July 24, 2011


Thursday, July 7, 2011

My fault

u sick again.. what cause it?
things? people? study?
ya..each of it is also the cause.
but the most important reason is ME..

ya, in your heart.. i m a very selfish person.
i always cant do what u expect from me..
how a lousy person am i?!!
we often misunderstand each other real means.
from other sight...
we are really love each other well..
but there are also happens many problems among us..
but i think u will say most of the problems are happen on me..
i not a considerate people and i not concern about u..

since u this from me..
i will try to do what u want..
sometimes i mumble u or say about anythings that u don like,
sry.. i apologize about that..
i did really stress here.. in KL..
u will say me stil small or not mature gua..
but i am girl, i did miss my family and feel lonely sometimes here.
and i just want a little bit attention from u and wish u will comfort me
but u just always say me childish and stupid..
i know i am stupid.. but cant u put in your heart?
u know a girl who stay alone depart from her family de feeling?
ya. u will say i deserve it, coz i choose it.. i choose to come here study..
u forever wont understand this kind of feeling. but i wish u can try to understand..and try to stand on my perspective to think..
i edi choose to study here, can u support my choice and don always blame me on many things?
sometimes i think that i edi start to do a part that suppose to done by a bf..

i not only know how to waste your money..
i try not to use your money coz i edi cant endure u always blame me of using your money..
every time u ask me wanna buy things onot, that moment u will say u buy for me.. i din ask for it.. but after that, u will start blaming me used much of your money..
i did spend my money on u.. but just intangible.
can don always quarrel because of money?
at home, i edi always heard my parent quarrel every time and the cause is money..most of their quarrel is about it. i told myself, i don wan to quarrel with my husband because of money..
if u really think i did used much of your money, i can pay back to u.. cause i don wan we quarrel again.. i can spend on u much.. i din ask u to pay back or blame u use much of my money.. coz i choose this, i wont blame anybody.. but every time u blame me that, i did feel very sad that u keep blaming me that..
my allowance not tat much oso.. i buy things and i got count that if i need that.. i know sometimes i really simply buy things but i got limit myself..

i rerally love u..
these few weeks, i think i really forget things often.
forgive me if i really forget somethings that important on u..
i don wan that..but i really forgot..
sry for not tat concern about u..
i try to record down everything about u..

other people can share their sad things with their friends..
but i cant, so i will feel more stress..
u cal me to tel u, but sometimes u wont understand because u not me..
and u not in my perspective..
we see things differently.. sometimes i really cant agree with what u action, but i will try to accept wat u say..
i know i write very long d..

i think u will think i writing all this immature things..
sry to let u feel so sad these few days..
thx for endure me for so long times..

i try to do wat u wan..
there is no return from u i wan..
i just need your understanding and sry for all the things that i did to u..
really sry..
i am not a very good gf. before u, i dunno i am such a person.
thx for letting me know i am really so selfish..



Sometimes, you are very charming.
Sometimes, you are very pretty.
Sometimes, you are very cute.
Sometimes, you are very manja.
Sometimes, you are very beautiful.
Sometimes, you are very smart.

BUT, there are also~~

Sometimes, you are very annoying.
Sometimes, you are very frustrating.
Sometimes, you are very scary.
Sometimes, you are very horror.
Sometimes, you are very terrible.
Sometimes, you are very ignorant.
Sometimes, you are very rebellious.
Sometimes, you are very lazy.
Sometimes, you are very careless.
Sometimes, you are very forgetful.
Sometimes, you are very dangerous.

So, You are still You~~
Nothing's gonna change my love for you~~
Because You are Who You are right?
I love everything of yours~~
There is NO return for ME.
This is My Love for You~~
I'll try to suit Myself to You~~
I just hope that one day in the future You will try to be a Better, Mature person.
Not just change it for Me, Its for your own good as well.
Hopes that The Day that I'm hoping for is getting nearer day by day~~
Sometimes I really wanted to scold You, but I just kept it all in My heart.
I tried My very best not to angry at You each time.
But still, I've let You seen it sometimes.
I do really sorry about that.
But I really do want You to understand more things, and learn from it.
I doesn't simply nagged people, especially, You.
But You just doesn't get what I'm thinking and what I mean.
Sometimes, I do really wanted to Speak those vulgar words.
But I still keep restraint to speak it out. Although sometimes I spoke one or two.
I hate Myself being distracted from My Studies.
I hate Myself when being pressure from Parents, and You.
There are still a lot of things that You need to understand besides than Your Own Needs.
Sometimes, I've made a choice that You don't like.
But if You really could understand why and don't just simply accused Me of making those choices, I'll be very happy.
Cause it will mean that You have already grown up if You can think in this way.
But, for what i can see now,
After One year plus,
Things still the same.
Unhappy things keep repeating. I don't know that if You are aware of it.
I'm really Unhappy recently.
I can't take it anymore.
I'm mentally Stress.
I really Can't Take it ANYMORE..!!!!!
Sorry about it.
I'm still not ready for this kind of suffering.
Please give me some time.
I'm still not use to the way You are.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Its kinda long time didn't updated d..
Recently quite active/busy over church events..
although its tiring, but its really enjoy..
Not only that, i've learn many things, and also reminds me of things that i've forgot..=)
I appreciate all these events that had been held all the years,
In order to make myself a better person, no matter in church or in daily life.
My results will be release on the 8th of July.
Hope that its not that worst as what i expected.
I really dun wanna to fail my studies again..
I wanna to graduate faster..
i need to Concentrate in my studies..
Cause parents are giving me pressure..
but its just for my own GooD..=)

All i can do is just to pray to GOD to give me the strength that i need to finish the tasks that i have..^^

I've really long long time didn't contact with friends..
really felt so so so sorry to them..
Caused i've gave them a feeling that i've forgotten them..
I'm here to apologize to all my friends o..
Really sorry ya~~
Hope that after my studies i'll be free to gather with you all again~~
Take GooD Care all my friends..
Please dun forget me..

Wednesday, May 11, 2011


i tot every people only need 8 hours per day to sleep?
y some people will sleep more than 8 hours but still say tired and sleepy?
is this a sick?
really not understand..
don care!!

just translate somethings.
but really feel tired when do that lar.
i think if i do continue do the divine work that i can do,
maybe i can be better and be a good children of God
i wan to be a good worker in church but i always scare.
actually i also dunno wat things i scare for..

maybe i really need to prepare my heart to back to college
and to start the new semester.
God, please help me in everything, so that i can be able to work hard in church and do everything for u!! pls give me one more chance to serve u..
and also need to be well prepare to back to that lonely place.
sometimes regret that i decided to study at kl.
really miss home.
but some people will just scold me and say this is my choice. wat to do?

miss my family always.
some people wont understand my feeling coz they really live really blissful..

Love daddy, mummy and sisters~~

Tuesday, May 10, 2011


I've been holiday for 3 weeks plus..
but stil don feel wan to back kl yet!!
This is the first time i write blog.. haha~
some ppl might confuse y i write like this.. LOL
Chong Xin Zhi might know wat happen.. haha

Everyday stay at home very sien ar..
but still enjoying at home.
no need to spend my own money, no need to worry no ppl accompany me, no need to kacau Nobody, no need to worry about my study when at home..

next semester have many hard subjects to study..
dunno i can be able to get the result tat i wan onot.. haiz..
but i know someone will support me..

These day felt that i was doing something wrong but don wan to change o..
haiz..wats wrong with me??
i should be know wat is wrong and wat is right.
i shouldn't find the grey area.

we long time din argue and fight for somethings d..
very good har.. but i scare when i back kl,
and when i start feel lonely den will start argue again..
i think i m such a ppl tat cant be lonely o~
but i cant always find others right?

thx for so considerate to me and everytime let me win..
i really very bad right?
i knew tat too..
i should be start to read bible and pray at least twice a day.
anyone can just always encourage me to do these things..
i don wanna do wrong things again.
i don wan them to feel disappointed to me..

ok!! is time to do home work..
write next time..

Sunday, April 24, 2011



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Saturday, April 23, 2011


Thursday, March 31, 2011


Wednesday, February 16, 2011


CNY almost end d..
today is chu 14..
tomolo is last day.

This year Chinese New Year wasn't that great, it is because the holiday is not that ngam.
So, chu 5, people edi started work and study.
Not only that, recent years's CNY wasn't that enjoy.
There isn't much CNY feel in Malaysia.
except every year's Chu 9, Bai Tian Gong, Many Hokkien ppl will light the fire crackers.
So that is a very "wonderful" night.
Everyone cant sleep early..

I think i'll updated till here..
soon when i'm 'free' then i'll update more..