My fault

u sick again.. what cause it?
things? people? study?
ya..each of it is also the cause.
but the most important reason is ME..

ya, in your heart.. i m a very selfish person.
i always cant do what u expect from me..
how a lousy person am i?!!
we often misunderstand each other real means.
from other sight...
we are really love each other well..
but there are also happens many problems among us..
but i think u will say most of the problems are happen on me..
i not a considerate people and i not concern about u..

since u this from me..
i will try to do what u want..
sometimes i mumble u or say about anythings that u don like,
sry.. i apologize about that..
i did really stress here.. in KL..
u will say me stil small or not mature gua..
but i am girl, i did miss my family and feel lonely sometimes here.
and i just want a little bit attention from u and wish u will comfort me
but u just always say me childish and stupid..
i know i am stupid.. but cant u put in your heart?
u know a girl who stay alone depart from her family de feeling?
ya. u will say i deserve it, coz i choose it.. i choose to come here study..
u forever wont understand this kind of feeling. but i wish u can try to understand..and try to stand on my perspective to think..
i edi choose to study here, can u support my choice and don always blame me on many things?
sometimes i think that i edi start to do a part that suppose to done by a bf..

i not only know how to waste your money..
i try not to use your money coz i edi cant endure u always blame me of using your money..
every time u ask me wanna buy things onot, that moment u will say u buy for me.. i din ask for it.. but after that, u will start blaming me used much of your money..
i did spend my money on u.. but just intangible.
can don always quarrel because of money?
at home, i edi always heard my parent quarrel every time and the cause is money..most of their quarrel is about it. i told myself, i don wan to quarrel with my husband because of money..
if u really think i did used much of your money, i can pay back to u.. cause i don wan we quarrel again.. i can spend on u much.. i din ask u to pay back or blame u use much of my money.. coz i choose this, i wont blame anybody.. but every time u blame me that, i did feel very sad that u keep blaming me that..
my allowance not tat much oso.. i buy things and i got count that if i need that.. i know sometimes i really simply buy things but i got limit myself..

i rerally love u..
these few weeks, i think i really forget things often.
forgive me if i really forget somethings that important on u..
i don wan that..but i really forgot..
sry for not tat concern about u..
i try to record down everything about u..

other people can share their sad things with their friends..
but i cant, so i will feel more stress..
u cal me to tel u, but sometimes u wont understand because u not me..
and u not in my perspective..
we see things differently.. sometimes i really cant agree with what u action, but i will try to accept wat u say..
i know i write very long d..

i think u will think i writing all this immature things..
sry to let u feel so sad these few days..
thx for endure me for so long times..

i try to do wat u wan..
there is no return from u i wan..
i just need your understanding and sry for all the things that i did to u..
really sry..
i am not a very good gf. before u, i dunno i am such a person.
thx for letting me know i am really so selfish..

SORRY!! SORRY